how long has it been?

i say, 5 months

and i'm still falling

falling in love with you, over and over

i'm so thankful that i have you

love u beb, as always ^_^

random thoughts

i'll love u more than you'll ever know...

love u hunny ^_^

4 months, and counting ^_^

it's been four months hun..
and you're still the same...

you're still the same guy who makes me smile in the morning
the same guy who gives me that "kilig" feeling
same guy who is oh so sweet

hope you'd stay the same...but on second thought, don't

hope as the days go by
you'd be sweeter, more understanding and kind

i'm so thankful that i have you

here's to the next 4 months, and more

I LOVE YOU <3 <3 <3

^_^

u talk too much, i already apologize(d)...

that was the message that really hit my nerves big time.

let me tell u as short as i can what happened..

there was one time that my friend needed a loan (lets call her X). the other friend(will refer to her as Y) knew someone who loaned cash to those who need them badly. so what happened is that Y, who was the guarantor of the loan, accompanied X to don robert(as they would call them) to obtain that loan. in the end, both of them got a loan from don robert

then when time came when they needed to pay their dues, Y, was unable to pay because of job loss, X needed to pay for the remainder of the loan so she can obtain her ATM card. (the ATM was used as a collateral and u have to get the ATM from don robert every payday).

X payed for Y's loan, and time passed and Y still hasn't paid X. now, since both of them are my friends, X is always bugging me, telling me to ask Y to contact her regarding her debt.

eventually i got tired of all this, X always telling me to ask Y to pay her loan, which, in the first place i don't know anything about their arrangement. at this point i already gave her a piece of my mind about the issue..she apologized..then i texted her more, and was trying to explain my point..then she sent that msg to me " u talk too much, i already apologize(d).

at that point i wanted to burst in anger..i mean, wtf, what's wrong with you?! i'm just trying to let you understand my point, and then you're the one who's telling me that i talk too much?? i wanted to say something like, "how dare you!"

this all happened monday afternoon, with the exchange of text messages. and then earlier i was chatting with her in fb, and then there were some exchange of messages. the last msg she sent me was like: thats wat u tink, but thats not what i think. so wen i felt u misunderstood it by posting a msg sa fb, i chose not to comment, i jst let it be. i cant please anyone anyway..

and then i replied: well, sometimes u have to think what others may think. and we have to be careful sa mga cnsbi natin. ndi nalang plagi tayo. bahala na, wala akong pakialam sa knya. people have feelings din naman, u know

and then she didnt reply anymore. whatever, i don't care..ganyan talaga yata pag tumatanda, ahahaha!

i don't know, maybe people are just like that, they don't seem to care about what others may think..

so, what about you? tama lang naman yung ginawa ko dba?

would you complete me?

last night i had a dream...me and my friends/office mates were eating at our fave fast food restaurant when suddenly 2 guys came inside. then these 2 other friends of mine approached these 2 guys and they were getting along well with these people. ako naman, out of depression yata na wala akong makarir that time and i thought, for the longest time wala akong naging bf...in my dream i cried, and i cried hard..hard enough that i was really nahihiya na sa mga kasama kong ibang friends.

nakalimutan ko na yung mga sumunod na eksena, but after a few minutes i woke up...nung una i said to myself, "that's not what i really feel, thats sooo oa naman" but deep inside i asked myself, " hindi nga ba talaga?"

my conscience (like the one in the safeguard commercial) wanted to make batok-batok myself and wanted to tell me, "shut up! at sino naman ang niloko mo?!" i hate myself. until now i'm still that dramatic person na nga, hopeless romantic pa...baklang emo ako! i hate to admit it, but it's true! huhuhuhu T_T

bakit ganun? lagi nalang akong napag-iiwanan. i remember this guy that i dated before early this year, and i saw his profile in facebook and in multiply. he was with this guy, na i think boyfriend na nya...again i asked myself, bakit ako, wala? bakit nung time namin, ayaw naman nyang makipag relasyon? maybe we're not meant to be, or maybe i'm just a big L, le-huu-se-er!

i feel so alone, so incomplete...ayoko na, i hate this, i dont wanna feel this feeling anymore. i dont wanna put up this face anymore, pretending that i'm happy, that i'm ok. but the truth of the matter is, i'm not...

who would put the smile back in my face, sino? would you? are you the one?

that guy from il pirata...

me, atchz and his friend were having a frozen margarita at il pirata at eastwood, at nag gagaguhan lang that time talking about guys and sex and all that jazz and life in general while at the same time eating "morgan" pizza

and then suddenly this cute guy comes and sits on the next table beside us












medyo malayo lang ang kuha at stolen shot kse at walang flash. but if u just saw him in person ang gwapo nya talaga, maputi, matangos ang ilong and everything. mukha din siyang mabait at boyfriend material. and then all of a sudden this chaka girl shows up and sits beside this uber handsome guy and kills the moment. but theyre not sweet or pda or anything like that...kaya lang the guy looks like he is straight

and even if he wasn't i wouldn't dare go anywhere near him because i looks like the one that i'm drinking and i looked really wasted


but most of all, i hate that chaka girl for coming and making sira my view of that guy from il pirata...

oh well, at least i had a few minutes just staring at him and his "handsomeness"

till next time, you know you love me, x.o.x.o.

^_^

graduation day

crt exam? passed! whew! that was close, thought i won't make it

graduation na from team aris, lipat na sa crt. graduation din ni pam, pambihira this is it na nag-resign na ang lola mo. we'll miss that bitch, haaaay...

si 15 years nag eemote gusto na rin magresign...wala nang aris and the cheerleaders,
aris and the hopefuls nalang

tsk tsk, what will happen to me kaya sa crt? we'll see...

x.o.x.o.